this isn't me
Monday, 19 March 2012

'cause no one said living this life would be easy, yet no one said that living this life would be this hard.

I hate it, I hate feeling this vulnerable, I hate feeling like I'm not in control of how I'm feeling.

I hate curling up in that one corner of my room sobbing away because there's nothing else that I can do than to convince myself that I'm good enough, that I'm already trying my best and that one day, just one day, things will finally be ok. 

I hate having to wear my shades out on a shady day just because I feel like I'm going to break down if I make eye contact with any passing stranger on the street.

I hate this feeling of not belonging. I'm stuck, I'm neither here nor there. And each day it just feels like I'm getting torn apart more and more. It feels like I'm falling apart and I have no idea how much longer I can hold myself together before I end up falling to pieces.

Why do things have to be this hard?
Why does life have to be this hard?


Lots of ♥, Cheryl

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