my prayer
Saturday 31 December 2011

my personal prayer for 2012, what's yours?


Lots of ♥, Cheryl

december days
Tuesday 27 December 2011





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all yours
Monday 26 December 2011


Been doing a lot of thinking recently, been thinking about things past, present and future. Been thinking about my church decision, my church ministries and what God wants for me. Next year is going to be a tough one and the following year will be even tougher, I can feel it in my blood, in my spirit, it's letting me know that life is not going to get easier from here, it's only going to get a lot tougher. Ignorance is truly bliss. I remember struggling with God for 5 over hours during Hanturama'10, begging Him to not have me make a decision, begging Him for more time before things change. And now that I've reached a rough decision, it hurts so bad every time I think about it. 

Jerald asked me that day why I didn't tell him that I was staying in FCBC and I told him that it was because I couldn't announce it out loud yet, somehow I can't find the strength to say it out loud and I'm simply not prepared for what's to come. Every night I whisper a silent prayer to God that things wouldn't have to change, that if He loves me He wouldn't make me go through this, but every night I get the same answer that He has greater plans for me and He loves me that's why I'm going through all this, His heart breaks to see me hurt, but it's all necessary. All I can do is trust in Him that He has the best plans for my life, plans to prosper me and not to harm me. 

Chatting with Ally that night at Round Up, we talked about all we've been put through in RR. From being told that we weren't good enough, to our commanders letting us down time and time again, to being left to fend for ourselves, to the unfair treatment we got. We looked back at all these bad memories in RR only to find ourselves even more inspired and motivated to make a difference in the next generation, to make sure that the same mistakes wouldn't repeat themselves again. And I'm glad for Ally, that she's becoming a commander, that she has this passion for the younger ones, a passion to see them grow up in a 'safe' RR environment, this determination to protect the kids so that they'll never have to go through the nightmare that we went through. I'm proud of her and I'm glad that she will be able to use the lessons that God has thought her to impact the generations to come. And then I think about myself, I'm not going to be around in RR anymore, so what was all of that for? I used to believe that God had a greater purpose for me in RR and that I wouldn't have been put through so much if He didn't have a purpose for me, that one day it'll all be worth it, one day it'll all pay off. But now standing at this point in my life, I cannot help but find myself questioning God about why He put me through everything. Why He put me through such misery, such terrifying moments that till these days I still get nightmares from. Why God, why?

Stepping into greater roles in FCBC next year, leading a Barnabus group with Esther and taking on more roles in the youth ministry and as a cell intern brings about much excitement and uncertainty. And I kinda made a promise to myself that in 2012, I want to be as involved in RR as possible, I want to make this my best year in RR and I want to inspire as many lives in RR before I leave. Honestly, I think I'll find myself so drained next year, I'll be finding myself on my knees crying out to God, asking Him to give me strength to make it through. 

"I will serve the Lord all my days even if it consumes all of me" - that was a promise I made to God a few years back. And even though life is about to get a whole lot tougher and I'm scarred from all that I've been through, I know that God is watching over me, smiling over me. Honestly am looking forward to the day that I run back into His arms, His embrace and He just smiles over me, letting me know that He's proud of me and that I've been His good and faithful servant. 

Cheryl. Existing for God's Glory.


Lots of ♥, Cheryl

blessings
Sunday 25 December 2011


HELLO KITTY SAYS HELLO! <3 









Christmas presents for the cell and the rangers peeps

Present making has left me pretty broke but I'm really glad to know that someone I care is receiving a present from me, letting them know that I've thought of them and really appreciate having them in my life.

So to all my lovelies out there, a very blessed Merry Christmas! :)


Lots of ♥, Cheryl

the true meaning of christmas
Saturday 24 December 2011





















Merry Christmas everyone! 
hope those that came to the cell party enjoyed themselves :) i know i did!
Thank you God for giving us the greatest gift possible :)
"Jesus, you are the reason for this season"


Lots of ♥, Cheryl

christmas
Friday 23 December 2011


my little christmas present for myself,
little rewards to reward myself for making it through this year.


Lots of ♥, Cheryl

beautiful moments
Thursday 22 December 2011






those were the days


Lots of ♥, Cheryl

this is me
Tuesday 20 December 2011

I'm Cheryl. I'm a seventeen year old free spirit, often a victim of severe wanderlust. I'm a complicated person, both on the inside and out. I might seem like a very easy-go-lucky person, but you'll be surprised by how much I can achieve when I set my heart and mind on something. I'm a positive person, I look for the best in everyone and I try to make the best out of every situation. I respect independence and decisiveness and that's why I can't stand people who are super indecisive or reliant on others. I bleed freedom. I dislike being told what to do and how to do it. I'm the kind of girl that would rather get hit by a bus then to take shit from anyone. I absolutely hate getting blamed for things I didn't do, so before you accuse me of anything make sure you get your facts right. I have zero tolerance for bullshit. I'm a very direct person, I often speak what's on my mind and somethings these words hurt people but I still say them anyway cause it's the truth. "If you want to be smashed in your face with truth, ask me."I get bored really quickly and am constantly on the search for new things to interest myself with. I'm the type of person that pushes myself way above my limits before completely crashing and going through a meltdown to rise up from the ashes to repeat the cycle once again. I might procrastinate from time to time but I do my best under pressure, challenge me to something and you'll definitely regret it because I'll do it well above your expectations leaving you speechless. If I pay you a compliment, cherish it because I rarely do so. I see the value in things such as time, life and love, so I plan to use live this life to the fullest. When it comes to relationships, I'm slow to commit, I like the chase, when I feel like I earned you, I won't let you go that easily cause you're hard to get, but when you're easy, that's game over, cause I'm over it too. I'm capable of walking from a relationship if the problems cannot be resolved. I like to be pampered, to be loved but I need my space at the same time, I hate being imprisoned by love. I'm sorry, but never in this lifetime will I ever be interested in younger or clingy guys.


Lots of ♥, Cheryl

ANTS
Saturday 17 December 2011





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raised hopes
Wednesday 14 December 2011

sometimes I wonder if the person you're talking about is me,
then I realize that it can't be,
cause if I mattered that much to you, you would have never let me go
and you wouldn't have waited till now to say those words.


Lots of ♥, Cheryl

weariness
Tuesday 13 December 2011

feeling so tired and burnt out from common tests :(
been studying like crazy along with sleeping at the weirdest hours over the past few days
and at some points in time, I feel like I can just crash & burn any minute 
2 more papers to go and end of CTs but the thought of all the upcoming camps/activities makes me feel so drained

Round Up - 15-17 Dec, Barnabus Club vistation - 18 Dec, Sub Comm Bonding 20-21 Dec, YEP interview - 21 Dec, Gkids Caroling - 23 Dec, RR Caroling - 23 Dec, Christmas Party - 24 Dec, NPSU Prep Camp - 28 Dec - 30 Dec, CountUp party - 31 Dec, and all the nonsense projects that need to be done before sem 2 term 2 begins

  sigh, really cannot wait to catch a breather
kinda am starting to regret promising the WBF that i'll go down to Round Up to help out cause i realize this means i'll get to sleep super little and sleep super uncomfortably (cause there aren't enough rooms to sleep in and i might just end up sleeping at/on the canteen table) and it's right after my exams so i'll be dead tired and all. so tempted to not go for it but I shall be a good WBF and support him cause he worked so hard on this!

God, please give me strength to get me through this exam period and the hectic period following on after that.


Lots of ♥, Cheryl

ours
Monday 12 December 2011

"I just love the contrast of when you see somebody light up when they're with the person they love, where as they can be living in tones of gray when they're not." -Taylor Swift <3


Lots of ♥, Cheryl



这只是一场梦
这不是现实



Lots of ♥, Cheryl

pray
Sunday 11 December 2011

How can I live such a lifestyle when people in the world are dying?
What am I doing to make a difference?
What am I doing with my life?



I just cant sleep tonight.
Knowing that things aint right.
Its in the papers, its on the tv, its everywhere that I go.
Children are crying.
Soldiers are dying
Some people don’t have a home


But I know there’s sunshine behind that rain
I know there’s good times behind that pain
Hey.. can you tell me how I can make a change?

I close my eyes and I can see a brighter day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray

I lose my appetite, knowing kids starve tonight.
Am I a sinner, cause my dinner is still on my plate.
Ooo I got a vision, to make a difference.
And its starting today.

Cause I know there’s sunshine behind that rain
I know there’s good times behind that pain
Can you tell me how I can make a change?

I close my eyes and I can see a brighter day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day

I close my eyes and pray for the broken-hearted.
I pray for the life not started
I pray for all the ones not breathing.
I pray for all the souls in need.
I pray. Can you give em one today?

I just cant sleep tonight.
Can someone tell me how to make a change?

I close my eyes and I can see a brighter day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and I pray
I pray


Lots of ♥, Cheryl

calendar

so much for taking a break this holidays.


Lots of ♥, Cheryl

discipline
Friday 9 December 2011

Cheryl, please discipline yourself and study hard for your upcoming CTs tyvm


Lots of ♥, Cheryl

out of love
Thursday 8 December 2011



To see hearts turn back to Him, to see lives renewed, that's the greatest desire of my heart. My calling in life is to serve God's people, to bring His word to those that haven't heard, to love those that are unloved, to care for those that the world has cast aside.


I believe in generations, I believe in the young ones, I believe that they have the ability to change the world. I have seen God do so many miracles through my k1 & k2 kids and I believe that God has great plans ahead for them and I want to be part of His plan. I want to raise the girls that I've been assigned to in Barnabus club to become God-fearing women that will chase after His heart with such fervency and passion. The leaders of tomorrow, the stars in this crooked and depraved generation.


"Let this life be used for change."


Lots of ♥, Cheryl

bucket list
Wednesday 7 December 2011

my bucket list,


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words from God
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